{Why, howdy, y'all.} It's been a while. But, I've said that before and unto a more pressing matter...
Sara Dim, my girlfriend, has decided to talk to and even hang out with a girl named Devon Skelton. I call her Skeleton because she looks like one and is... disgusting.
The story behind this is that Devon, while in my high school, was a giant slut, drank alcohol and slit her wrists to the point where they left permanent scarring. She has fucked up Alex's life, Sara's life, and everyone else's life along with that because she's so fucking emotional and retarded. She relies on people to deal with her problems and her issues because she can't deal with them on her own. And so, she used Sara and Alex which in turn, made Alex cut more and made Sara way more depressed.
AND SO, after Devon was forced to graduate early because the school cops found freaking RAZORS in her book bag, she left out lives. Well, except Alex's because Alex is too nice of a person to actually let a "friend" down. But now, after a good solid year of not dealing with Dev's bullshit anymore, Sara has suddenly decided she wanted to hang out with Devon.
Oh, I'm sorry, what was that? You want to HANG OUT with the person who has ruined your life, your brother's life, and Alex's life? Well gee, there must be a GOOD reason for this.
But there isn't. Sara says she wants to see how Devon is doing and how her life is going. So, basically, giving her a second chance. A second chance Devon doesn't FUCKING DESERVE. Like, REALLY?! I can't... ugh, I'm so angry right now. I'm angry at Devon for entering her life AGAIN and if probably gonna fuck it up. AGAIN. This is such a retarded idea, I have no idea how Sara says she isn't dumb because there are SERIOUSLY times I question that. This is one of them. I don't get how someone can just... forgive this type of person who just leeches and sucks the life outa anyone.
{I. Don't. Get. It.}
It's insane. I CAN'T let her go through with this... but I am because it's her dumb decision and it's her choice. I'm not gonna control her and tell her what she can or cannot do. I'm just so... against this idea. It's not smart, it's gonna solve anything, and it's gonna be messy. I can sense it. Despite what she may think, once Devon has established a "friendship" with Sara, it'll start affecting her life. I swear it. I just... don't GET it.
Why would someone even WANT to talk to this... pitiful excuse for a human being? To try and HELP them? This person is BEYOND help. We've seen proof of this at the end of last year when she started DRINKING after being practically thrown out of our high school and her parents did nothing to stop it. She's also (from what I've been hearing) is STILL drinking in college, is fucking men like a cat in heat, and it probably still cutting herself into oblivion. In my opinion, no person like this is worth even glancing at. But, I suppose Sara sees SOMETHING in her. I don't.
I don't want this to happen. I don't want Sara to talk to her ever again. I don't want her hanging out with her. I don't want her helping Devon. I don't want her to get hurt by this. Maybe I'm overreacting... but can you BLAME me for being paranoid and a little suspicious? I mean, fucking COME ON. I just... I don't even know. I don't want Devon back in anyone's lives. She doesn't deserve it.
And maybe I like asserting myself in people's lives sometimes. Maybe I like being in other people's lives because my life is so dull.
Who knows? I surely don't. I just don't want last year to repeat.
